Stepping Gently on the Unknown Ground of This Moment
Choosing to be in your body and with this breath can be scary. The practice is simple; yet it takes us away from familiar ground. The familiar ground of thinking. Thoughts arise, but in practicing not THINKING OUR THOUGHTS we come to realize we are not our thoughts, and all of who we thought we were comes into question. This is shaky ground. It can be fucking scary. It can bring us into direct contact with the deep seated fear in our body we have been trying to get away from our whole life.
The deep fear of unworthiness.
The deep fear of badness.
The deep fear of annihilation.
The deep fear of being unlovable.
The deep fear of being left.
Inquire into yours and drop those words down for the next sentence.
So most of us walk around with this vague sense that something is wrong. Something isn't quite right with our life. If only we had a lover. If only we had money. If only we had respect. If only....then we'd be happy. But alas, not so...not so...not so. You know this to be true. You've gotten things you really wanted and did it ease the dis-ease? Maybe for a few minutes. At best a few days.
The only true solace is to be found in resting in this moment. Not believing our thoughts to be absolute truth. And expect the shakiness of fear to hold your hand. It is part of the practice. IT'S OK TO BE AFRAID. IT'S OK TO ASK FOR HELP. Have faith in the unconditional wordless holding of this moment. Surrender and fold into your own body. Trust your breath. Take refuge in your belly. Above all, trust your innate goodness. But don't take my word for it. Just now, drop it all and come into yourself wholly holy and completely with so much kindness it makes you cry. Soften your heart. BE ALL YOU ARE.
